disintegrate

rate

forever ;

you all are STILL the reason why i can let go.
i cannot imagine what will it be like if i was never apart of your lives.
and after talking to you yesterday, i realised that the pain will hurt even more at the end of the year. And i just started crying because it hurts to make a decision like this.

but what would it be like if i stay and see you and you leave? we all have to admit that even though we need each other, we still need to be around our own age group too. but without the both yous, i dont know how i will be able to survive alone too.There are alot of other factors that i cant seem to agree with. God, what do you want me to do? i really want to move on but there are alot of things that are holding me back. Deal with me in YOUR own way, Lord.

i am glad that you told me that you felt the same sentiments of us being one cg in future. Like how our parents are now, it will be amazing to forever be a part of each other's lives. It has always been one of my childhood dream to do so and i know that in each of our hearts, we want it that way too. (:

Lets sincerely pray for directions this year and in the coming years. And lets just follow where God wants us to be. i know that His plans will be the most perfect for us. (:

i believe that our hearts will be there
even if we are miles away.
even if we drift apart sometimes,
our hearts will find the way back to restore everything.